It may have just been my mind, but I almost felt like I knew that I was pregnant the very moment after I had been with my boyfriend. Very weird, but true. I went home that night thinking, I'm pregnant. I just know I am. Well...I was right. I was pregnant.
The next month when I didn't get my period, so, took a home pregnancy test and, just to get an official confirmation, I went to a clinic. I told my boyfriend and he said that he didn't want it. I told my best friend and told her that my boyfriend wants me to have an abortion and I don't want to, but she said that I was dumb for not having one. I thought to myself, "dumb"!?! I don't want to kill a baby. That's how I see it. I don't want to have that in my heart and in my mind. I don't believe that having an abortion is right. I'm not "dumb" for not having an abortion. Just like those people say that they have a "choice". I do too...I choose NOT to destroy a new life.
I understood that my boyfriend didn't want to be a father and I didn't really want to be a mother either. But, we were in this situation and the only thing that we could do was to go forward and start making some decisions. I thought we could do it together, but my boyfriend just saying that he wants me to have an abortion, and I kept saying that I didn't want to! We couldn't agree. So, we both finally agreed on something, and that was the fact that we needed to break up. It hurt, but I believe that it would have hurt more if I had destroyed the child that was growing inside of me.
With the help of an adoption counselor and my own pastor, I decided to place my baby for adoption. I learned a lot about the adoption process and I was able to choose the type of adoption that I wanted. I decided that one day, I may want to be in this child's life. I also helped to selected wonderful parents for this baby that would be there to raise him the right way. I can't be a mom right now, but one day, when I'm older, married, and more established, I may be ready to start my own family.
I learned, through this experience, that I really don't believe in abortion...not just because someone says I shouldn't but because, in my heart, I feel that it's not right. So, even though I was in a situation where my boyfriend wanted me to have an abortion, I didn't want to and I didn't do it! I didn't do it for me and I wouldn't do it for anybody. That's MY choice.
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